So at my scan on 25th September it appeared that my new lower dosage of medications meant that my ovaries have "underperformed" and only 2 follicles looking like they will do anything. How do we go from 28 eggs the cycle before, to only two this time!!
After a lot of consideration from my fertility specialist, and the threaten to cancel the cycle, he agreed to up my medications slightly and re-scan in a few days to see if we had anything else happening.
Had my re-scan on Monday 29th September and looked like we had around 8-10 follicles, which was a minor miracle after only having two a few days before!
Agreed to trigger shot that night ready for pick up on Wednesday morning.
Wednesday came and i was feeling extremely hopeful. I came out of theatre and was told that they only got 5 eggs!! Only 5, my heart shattered again, but i tried to remain positive.
I was advised of the usual procedure - phone in the next day to see how fertilisation had gone. I made my phone call, quietly hopeful, but was told only to eggs had fertilised!!
I was absolutely heartbroken. We were booked in for embryo transfer the next day, and i was sure that there wasn't going to be anything there to even transfer. I had my heart set on having a blastocyst transfer, but there was no way we could risk growing on only two embryo's to that stage.
After the 3 hour plus drive to the hospital on the Friday morning i was absolutely shocked that my phone did not ring during the trip (to tell me my embryo's had not survived), and on arrival was told that both embryo's were doing well - one to be transferred and one headed to the freezer.
The whole cycle was a crazy mess and even when i finally got called into Theatre for my transfer, it still felt like a mess - i didn't even have a bed yet as they had so many patients in there that morning! Everything felt to rushed, so much so that i wasn't even asleep when the doctor inserted the needle for the embryo - ooops, said the anesthetist and injected some more drugs. I even woke up while they were transferring me from the Theatre bed to a hospital bed to take me to recovery. Of all my times in Theatre, this had never happened before.
I had basically completely given up on this cycle before it even started - i had no confidence at all.
Friday 26 September 2014
Tuesday 16 September 2014
And so it begins again
So after my unsuccessful embryo transfer in June it was time for me to look at my situation and work out where to from here!!
I spoke to one of my Gynae Oncologists to get some reassurance that everything was ok - he said he had no doubt that all was ok. He also said that some women have problems conceiving a second time after a completely normal pregnancy anyhow, but my case is further compounded by having had such a major surgery. He has complete confidence in my fertility specialist, so that was certainly reassuring.
After all of the events of the past few years, we decided that it was time to have a short break from it all - only a couple of months, but that couple of months was enough time for me to "look at the bigger picture". Emotionally now i feel much more stable - i am now comfortable with the fact that the universe has something in store for me, who knows what, or why. I am so lucky to have my beautiful daughter already and even though i am going to continue to try for another baby in the short term, i am also comfortable with the fact that this may not happen for me.
We still have one frozen blastocyst, although decided to give ourselves the best chance possible we would leave that little one on ice for a bit longer and try for a fresh transfer.
This time my fertility specialist has decided on a "Pill Flare Cycle" for me. I was on the pill for two weeks, then had to wait for my period to arrive (which happened yesterday) - so tonight i start nightly injections of Puregon - my dosage is only 100 this time though, as last time it was 150 and we got far too many eggs which potentially caused problems with the quality of them. On day 6 of my cycle i need to start Orgalutran injections.
We are also going to grow all of my embryo's straight on to blastocyst stage this time - last time they were all frozen at 2 days old, and then when we decided to go for blastocyst we had to thaw them to advance and then re-freeze which can also take away from their quality.
Have a scan scheduled for 25th September, so will hopefully know more about what is happening after that.
Keeping my fingers crossed. If it's meant to be, then it will be :)
I spoke to one of my Gynae Oncologists to get some reassurance that everything was ok - he said he had no doubt that all was ok. He also said that some women have problems conceiving a second time after a completely normal pregnancy anyhow, but my case is further compounded by having had such a major surgery. He has complete confidence in my fertility specialist, so that was certainly reassuring.
After all of the events of the past few years, we decided that it was time to have a short break from it all - only a couple of months, but that couple of months was enough time for me to "look at the bigger picture". Emotionally now i feel much more stable - i am now comfortable with the fact that the universe has something in store for me, who knows what, or why. I am so lucky to have my beautiful daughter already and even though i am going to continue to try for another baby in the short term, i am also comfortable with the fact that this may not happen for me.
We still have one frozen blastocyst, although decided to give ourselves the best chance possible we would leave that little one on ice for a bit longer and try for a fresh transfer.
This time my fertility specialist has decided on a "Pill Flare Cycle" for me. I was on the pill for two weeks, then had to wait for my period to arrive (which happened yesterday) - so tonight i start nightly injections of Puregon - my dosage is only 100 this time though, as last time it was 150 and we got far too many eggs which potentially caused problems with the quality of them. On day 6 of my cycle i need to start Orgalutran injections.
We are also going to grow all of my embryo's straight on to blastocyst stage this time - last time they were all frozen at 2 days old, and then when we decided to go for blastocyst we had to thaw them to advance and then re-freeze which can also take away from their quality.
Have a scan scheduled for 25th September, so will hopefully know more about what is happening after that.
Keeping my fingers crossed. If it's meant to be, then it will be :)
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