More disappointmets

So at my scan on 25th September it appeared that my new lower dosage of medications meant that my ovaries have "underperformed" and only 2 follicles looking like they will do anything. How do we go from 28 eggs the cycle before, to only two this time!!

After a lot of consideration from my fertility specialist, and the threaten to cancel the cycle, he agreed to up my medications slightly and re-scan in a few days to see if we had anything else happening.

Had my re-scan on Monday 29th September and looked like we had around 8-10 follicles, which was a minor miracle after only having two a few days before!

Agreed to trigger shot that night ready for pick up on Wednesday morning.

Wednesday came and i was feeling extremely hopeful. I came out of theatre and was told that they only got 5 eggs!! Only 5, my heart shattered again, but i tried to remain positive.

I was advised of the usual procedure - phone in the next day to see how fertilisation had gone. I made my phone call, quietly hopeful, but was told only to eggs had fertilised!!

I was absolutely heartbroken. We were booked in for embryo transfer the next day, and i was sure that there wasn't going to be anything there to even transfer. I had my heart set on having a blastocyst transfer, but there was no way we could risk growing on only two embryo's to that stage.

After the 3 hour plus drive to the hospital on the Friday morning i was absolutely shocked that my phone did not ring during the trip (to tell me my embryo's had not survived), and on arrival was told that both embryo's were doing well - one to be transferred and one headed to the freezer.

The whole cycle was a crazy mess and even when i finally got called into Theatre for my transfer, it still felt like a mess - i didn't even have a bed yet as they had so many patients in there that morning! Everything felt to rushed, so much so that i wasn't even asleep when the doctor inserted the needle for the embryo - ooops, said the anesthetist and injected some more drugs. I even woke up while they were transferring me from the Theatre bed to a hospital bed to take me to recovery. Of all my times in Theatre, this had never happened before.

I had basically completely given up on this cycle before it even started - i had no confidence at all.